A update of our lives here in MO

A update of our lives here in MO

I have not kept in touch with many of you and want you all to know what we have been up to in the last couple of years.

In 2004 we moved from UT to MO. We planned on moving to Columbia. We went to Jefferson City to stay with Dan’s sister Jennifer and husband Ed, so we could find a place to live. Dan went out two weeks before the kids and I. After my arrival Dan announced to me he had changed his major from radiology to nursing he said he had done much research and educated me on what our lives would look like. Jens’s husband was a big player in this change his career field is Nurse Anesthetist. Because of this change we chose to stay in Jefferson City to attend school. Dan started on Prerequisites to the nursing program. After more research and stewing in the small city of Jeff we found school would be less money if we attended Saint Louis Community College. We knew the cost of living was more in St Louis. We looked anyway, to find a house sitting arrangement in Tower Grove. After only five months we where told that our agreement of three years where to be cut immediately due to unfortunate, unchangeable events. The change brought us to find our home here in Maplewood.

Our home is 92 years old. It has been updated and then sat for four years. We feel it was waiting just for us. We love that it has enclosed porches on the front and back of the home. Like mudrooms, perfect for all who enter our home to remove their shoes before coming in. But, no switching for better ones before you leave;})

Now, we are here in Maplewood in our four bedroom two bathroom house. We have a nice big yard and put in a berry garden our first spring here consisting of grapes, strawberries, blackberries, raspberries, and blueberries. We are looking forward to see what survives its first winter here.

So we live the life of school. Dan has been accepted into the nursing program and starts this January. He will finish in two years followed by a required year working as a nurse in the ICU. After which Dan will apply for Nurse Anesthesia School. We hope he will get accepted into one of the three schools near enough to commute.

Our two children Azure (5) and Corban (3) are big enough that they have become independent in many areas. Corban, is potty trained, they dress themselves although I have to be quick to set out what they will where or else it is interesting what gets picked out. Azure, has full day, five days a week Kindergarten.

With what looks to be like I have some time on my hands. We have decided to go ahead and have two more children. We had planned on waiting till our financial situation was that Dan would be a nurse. In counseling with the Lord we have received confirmation that our needs will be met in going forth to bring two more members of our family to our lives now. As a parent this is overwhelming to think I have reached this point in my live. As I accept it I feel it is my path and the Lords will for my life. I see the goal of being a great mother can continue with our children’s numbers becoming four. Wish us Luck!

Daniel and I have decided on a home birth. We have interviewed midwives here in the St. Louis area. We also see an OB/GYN as our back up plan in case of emergencies. This will be my fourth pregnancy, labor and delivery. I have not had any complications in the past. I am looking forward to my own birth plan with the experience created and experienced in my home.

With my 1st pregnancy I planned to have a drug free birth. Natural birth was what I told my doctor I wanted he said sure go ahead. I took a Lamaze class which was great education of how delivery happens. I was very distracted with other decisions as a birth mother that I did not pursue more information on what natural childbirth would be like. Going to delivery I hit a spot where the pain intensified for a brief moment looking back at that moment I caved when the doctor offered some pain relief. He suggested a paracervical, which is a local anesthetic. I was disappointed in the doctor and in my self. I wanted the time with Coco to be drug free.

Pregnancy number 2; Baby Azure,I looked forward to a pain killer an epidural. Having forgotten my own desires of child delivery I see now I had lowered my standard and forgotten about my own desires to experience a drug free delivery. I trapped myself in thinking the only time it would be “OK” for me to get to have drugs. I was fortunately very excited to be a mother and to do all the things my child needed her mother to do for her. I knew the right thing to do would be to discontinue the use of the pain killers as soon as possible. In my mind I kept a little place that said something like, “Yeah, can’t wait till I have another baby and get to have more drugs”. Which that is an awful combination drugs and babies. I do not like that I had those thoughts. At the time I did not even notice I still believed it was “OK”.

Baby 3; Corban, was a scheduled induction. Oh Boy was I looking forward to my “opportunity” to get numb pitocen, epidural and a Baby boy. Just saying this makes my heart, mind, soul, sick with how this just can’t compare to what I know to be right. There has to be something I am missing here. Something my Heavenly Father would defiantly want me to search and seek out to experience the very best of experiences I can have to bring me closer to him. I don’t think this is what I committed to when saying I would be a mother. I think mother hood has to be done DRUG FREE.

Planning Baby number 4; I will deliver drug free and in my own home where I can experience what I believe childbirth can be like. I know climbing this hill will and to my confidence and contribute to my self as a woman. I am grateful for the knowledge I have learned and hope I can be a great mother in every way.

Look forward to help us name our next two children.
We like names that have a great sound.